Just a Sample, Please

I only want a sample. That was really hard to say. Not a portion; that’s too much. I don’t want it any other way. I want just a taste, nothing more, nothing less. See, I know how to confess! I want to dabble, try a bite. Not too heavy, not too light. I want life to be a breeze. No decisions, no commitment. I’d like just a sample, please.

I’d like glory, I need grace. Let me see Your radiant face. Just a glance though, not a stare. Just remind me that You’re there. Don’t come knocking, don’t intrude. You should learn to not be rude! I will call You when I need You. Don’t remind me to beseech You. I don’t get down on my knees. I’d like just a sample, please.

Can You rock me fast asleep? Don’t You have promises to keep? I want comfort and delight. I prefer to walk by sight. That was tricky. This is hard. I don’t want to walk that far. There is no room for affliction. Entertainment’s my addiction. You are here to bring me ease. I’d like just a sample, please.

It’s not evil. You should try it. It’s really not that bad. Everybody seems to like it. Why are You getting mad? No matter what You call it, it goes by a different name. It’s appealing, it’s alluring, why don’t You look at it the same? It’s not sin, not at all. Why treat it like a disease? I won’t go out and buy it. I’d like just a sample, please.

Change the channel, try a hobby. Make a resume of sorts. I’m a spectator of sports. I walk the sidelines, dream a dream. I am never part of the team. I will never be a member. I leave my money in the bank. I won’t rise to higher rank. Mountains aren’t for me to climb. Practice is a waste of time. I won’t go back to that again. I try to spread myself real thin. Do it all, but just a little. Make sure people know I’m fickle. Stay alone. Stay at home. I don’t invite the neighbors in. Let them think that we are friends: just enough to give a tease. I’d like just a sample, please.

No commitment, no repentance. I’m not into heavy stuff. Something lighter, something nicer. I don’t like a path that’s rough. I think I’ve had enough. Only Sunday, maybe Wednesday, let’s not push this thing too far. Here a little, there a little. I don’t want to set a bar. Nice impressions on the outside. Only what a person sees. I don’t want to push the limits. I’d like just a sample please.

Rugged cross? I’m at a loss. I thought this was about me! How can You ask me to be free? Let me change it. Rearrange it. It won’t damage it at all. There’s no sin, so there’s no Fall. Now it’s pretty, now it’s clean. Not offensive, never mean. Take it up, and follow You? I’m not sure what You are asking. I’m not good at multi-tasking. I don’t want to walk that path. Dip my feet, not take a bath. This is not what I signed up for. Not the life that I’m designed for. I don’t want a God who bleeds. Cursed and dying on a tree. Just a genie for my needs. I’d like just a sample, please.

-Pilgrim Benham